My honest apology (part 1)

*fiction

This is addressed to the person I made an effort to catch the attention of, the person I trusted and the one who lied to me.
who gave me the impression that I was alone,
The person who left once the sexual activity was through, the one who left me feeling as though I was unlovable,
The person who called me over when he was just looking to fight and who made it apparent that I wasn't the female he was looking for.
I apologize because I tried and I didn't succeed.

This is for the person who gave birth to me and gave me life.
The person who grumbles and treats me like I'm the worst thing ever,
The one who emotionally abuses me,
The person who is meant to help me stand up,
The one who should only bring smiles and laughter to my face instead brings everything that goes against that
The person who consistently assesses me against others,
Whoever makes it so challenging to love her,
I'm not the daughter mother intended me to be, she claims.
I'm sorry, I do recognize that.