Every day I wake up is a different kind of heartbreak
I know I’m not supposed to be actively thinking of this because it won’t help
I feel like I am in a nightmare
I see your face every time I close my eyes
Life fucking sucks
My whole life is going apart and I am spiraling into depression.
How do you go from best friends to strangers
from lovers to strangers
sharing parts of yourself to not speaking at all
years and years of resentment
piled one on top of the other
waiting to crash
and when it eventually does your whole world crashes alongside
I can’t eat
I can’t breathe
I feel like blowing my fucking head off
I feel like I am drowning
my world revolved around you.
You said you will die if I leave
if you jump, I am jumping with you
because I love you to death.