Confused

Who am I supposed to be
I despise me
I don't even recognize you
The things I refuse myself to feel
Afterall
I worry that we will grow apart
All the important stuff I want to have are those ones I can't afford or buy
Love ran towards me and demanded to be felt
Once you know that someone loves you
and will always be there for you
You stop thinking about them
I don't want to be this person
Should I give up on love?
Then focus on my dreams
Let us switch it up
Most of us only know the world we are born into
Little can be so much when you're happy
Heavy is the head that wears the crown
Because when we stop moving or learning we stop growing
When I jump I will come down
But when I grow up I will stay there
Don't choose money over power