Working Theory

To move is to fail. Failure in many forms. Exhaustion through effort, or just not being able to push through desire.
If you cannot push through, is it really failing?
Absurd, the human need to get everything with little to no effort. There is no such thing as failure, only struggling for the first time. That is part of the effort. The risk of going far and beyond. Sick people could go that far. People with nothing to lose.
Ordinary ones think there is a possibility. They work for it. Eventually, there is a realization. The notion of getting it in the first attempt does not exist. Either you push through in some form, or you pivot to reach the same benefit. "It is a failure, buddy. You pivoted. Stick to it." Shifting the goalposts, or whatever it is. Doing it is the first part, and the essential part comes in deciding whether there is a desire for it or not. The cost of getting it and the satisfaction. The evolution in the process. The numbness. The apex was just the friends we made along the way, as the wise people say.
He stares at the screen. One more trade would mean trying again. Closing it would mean admitting he is done for the night. Both feel like loss. He sticks to it, that eventually he will be profitable. It is what was romanticized, put enough work to get it.
Striving to trade effectively forced something else into existence, parameters to sustain other ways. Realizing how difficult it is to maintain and get through losses.
It was not a pivot. A person who calculates. Prepared for every aspect. How could there be soul dependency on something that is so moving? Having something on the side could mean the loss tilts less.
There is something to learn, whether about the goal or about yourself. How much can you tank? What motivates you? Is it the creative or monetary aspect?
The only answer is through moving, and moving we shall do.